After I left college at 18, I dreamed of going travelling. I’d spend hours and hours each evening reading about different countries and cultures. I’d spend my pub shifts day dreaming about it as I carried stacks of plates to and from the kitchen.
A friend told me about teaching English abroad and suggested doing a TEFL (Teaching English as a Foreign Language) course. I was ridiculously excited about the prospect as I had previously thought about teaching as a career path, but didn’t go to University for various reasons.
I researched it, found courses on it, I spent days hovering over the “pay now” button for a course.
But you see at 18, I was not confident, the idea of travelling alone terrified me, and I wanted to please other people. Everyone else’s disinterest and lack of enthusiasm when I spoke about the course made me realise people didn’t believe in me, which caused me to doubt myself.
Over the years, through different life experiences, I’ve grown a lot as a person and developed a lot more confidence. I still kept thinking about doing a TEFL course but for one reason or another it was pushed aside.
Progressing from pub work to an office job, I would still be day dreaming of travelling and teaching, exploring new places and meeting new people as I stared at a computer screen, furiously tapping away 8 hours of my life every day.
I would kick myself for not having the confidence to have done what I wanted when I had the chance to, but what I’ve realised is that you shouldn’t compare your first chapter to someone else’s chapter 20, you have to do things when you’re ready.
When I broke up with my partner I had been living with, I realised it was time to stop living to try and please other people.
I’m at a stage in my life where I’m going to do what I’ve always wanted to do, what makes me happy, what fulfils me. I believe in myself now and that is enough. I don’t need anyone’s approval anymore to feel justified in my actions or behaviour.
The weekend before I went on my first solo trip to Rome, I stepped into a classroom at Kingston University (armed with just a notepad and pen), met lots of amazing people, learnt a lot and completed an intensive weekend TEFL course.
My certificate just arrived
So excited to expand on this, and can’t wait for the opportunities to put it to use!
So so proud of you for forging your own path Rhi.
Can’t wait to see where your adventures take you xx
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Thank you beautiful 😘
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